Never thought I'll blog today...everytime I felt like blogging I'll think of all the backlog i had and i'll feel too lazy to blog.
But now...1 am in the morning...when I'll be having my final paper in 16 hours' time...I couldn't sleep.
So I'll blog (heck with the backlog)
Well....uni life is ending soon (i think...assuming i get a S for BS803 -_-)
It's like ending a phase of your life...you know...the phase where u cried as mommy leaves you behind in a place full of strangers call kindergarten...
Close to 20 years later...you bid farewell to that stage in your life.
Where there were exams, now there'll be performance evaluations...
Where there were teachers, now there'll be bosses...
Where there were friends...
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...hopefully the friends will always be.
And to be fair, I haven't really been truthful to myself these 3 years...
Some feelings, I ignore...I forget...I trash at the back of my head...
But there is only so much deceiving one can do...when one day when your subconscious realize the status quo you are comfortable with is ending...
...all that accumulated feelings just resurface and hit you like a tsunami.
Maybe I should be truthful. Maybe I shouldn't succumb to cowardice.
But to do otherwise would be wrong....very wrong...with possibly dire consequences on my friendships...
Or maybe I'm just trying to find an excuse for cowardice.
Well, if I'm ever gonna learn to be truthful, I might as well start soon.
